I don't know what I was thinking. All of a sudden I was like...maybe part of being mature is also being in love...and I was thinking, I could do that. What's a little hand holding and listening? FUCK. All I will tell you is, despite my best efforts, this valentines day did kick me in the ass, hard. I was so sure I could do it, go on that stupid date, and just be content. Well, fuck you too Saint Valentine.
BTW, I ran into techno man. I know his dirty secrets. I hope he is uncomfortable.
About Me
- Amanda Marie
- My pain resides in who I used to be. I was stupid and ruthless, willing to drink the last sip just to numb the pain. When life gets too difficult, I mourn the hardships I face avoiding my past. I look through the one sided glass and often feel left out, knowing it used to be me who didn't have to worry about all the other hearts reaching out to me. Yes, it was much easier not to care, it was much easier to be numb to others pains, it was much easier to console myself. The funny thing about spiraling downward is that it always seems like a good alternative to reality...no matter what. "The search for truth is more precious than its possession" - Albert Einstein. "Many of us spend our whole lives running from feeling with the mistaken belief that you cannot bare the pain, but you have already borne the pain, what you have not done, is feel that you are beyond the pain" -St. Bartholomew
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