She's going the distance.

Sleep is too time consuming for my schedual. Winter is the busy season I suppose. Brittnay has to move again, I'll be spending a lot of time helping out with that. Kathleen is coming up for Christmas. I don't know how that is going to work. She's going to want to spend time with her friends and I can't just drop everything I'm doing when she's good and ready to spend time with the family. I'll be 18 soon, how weird is that? I don't really feel any different. I mean, this year has brought a lot of changes. I went from not knowing what I was going to do with myself to being pretty confident I could accomplish my goals. I'm no longer an alchoholic, which was a rather breif stage of my life. You know what I spend a lot of time thinking about? How did I get like that? I think it was mainly my lack of a better influence in my life. I know it's my fault, I've come to terms with taking responcibilty for my own actions. I guess if I was going to pass on advice to a younger generation it would be something like...don't let your aspirations to grow up influence your choices. I spent so much time with people that had surpassed my life stages and I confused their lifes for mine. The time I spent dwelling on unhealthy relationships, and unhealthy addictions were things I should have experianced later in life, when I had the knowladge how to deal with them. Something I find a little ridiculous is that no matter how pathetic I became in my lifestyle, none of these elder beings were interested in reforming me. So more advice would be to be your own motivater. You can't count on anyone else to get you places in life. No one can chose to live your life for you. I spent so many days relying on other people to motivate me to do things.